Tuesday, June 22, 2021

In the midst of Disappointment

Yesterday, I had a disappointing news regarding a job that I have been wanting and one that I felt God wants me to go for. One that I have been waiting on. One that I feel He told me is mine.

I was heartbroken. I did not sleep well. I could not rejoice and I don't feel like celebrating Tiara's birthday today.

This evening, I turned on to Westgate Chapel Tuesday Prayer Meeting ( https://youtu.be/IPiVXYlgEjgand the pastor was saying (50:05) When you feel that God has broken His promise... please don't hold back, respond to His invitation that He wants to heal your heart"

You are here
And You're healing every heart
I worship You
I worship You
And You are
Way maker, miracle worker
Promise keeper, light in the darkness
My God, that is who You are

Psalm 60: 4 "But you have raised a banner for those who fear you—a rallying point in the face of attack."

The enemy feared and tremble when the Church praise Him.

Spirit of Heaviness, put on the garment of Praise. - Isaiah 61:3

Praising God changes the atmosphere, it soften my heart to surrender to Him. 

Trusting Romans 8:28 (paraphrasing to personalize it to me)- "and [I] know that [my] God makes all things work together for my good [for I] who loves Him and called according to His purposes"

Wednesday, May 29, 2019

The result does not justify the action

Couple nights ago, I had to discipline my 5 years old daughter.
She loves our Alexa and Google at home to read stories to her. This behavior discourages her reading habit, so I decided to unplug Google.
I have always been emphasizing on safety around the house (i.e stay away from wall plug)
That night, Tiara ran to me and said "Mommy, I plug in Google and I did not get zapped"
While I am glad that she is safe, I told her, the result that she is not getting zapped does not justify her disobedience of first- leaving Google alone and 2nd being not safe.
I had to discipline her so that she remember to be safe.
These boundaries are created for her safety. 


Thursday, November 8, 2018

How much does a life cost?

Written as a response to Air Asia QZ8501 and Lion Air JT610 airplanes crash

First of all, my deepest condolences to the families of victims. No words that can describes the pain or the grief of losing love ones. I am deeply disturbed, upset and compelled to express my emotions out in regards to the accidents.

I also want to express my condolences to Mr Syachrul Anto's family (the diver who has died during the operation of retrieving Lion Air’s remains). Mr. Syachrul, thank you for serving the victim's family at the most tangible ways. You died a hero to us.

Air Asia QZ8501 and Lion Air JT610 are the most recent deadliest aviation accident in Indonesia - or in the world. I lost both of my parents and 4 members of my close relatives in December 28, 2014 on the Air Asia QZ 8501. The recent Lion Air accident brings back the memory, the dreadful waiting time of constantly following the news, hoping for the miracles, and being anxious all the time. Those sleepless nights. Restless days.

In this blog, I want to write to 3 groups of people:

1) Indonesian governments, Leaders of the world, Supreme courts' justices in US and in France:
I am pleading for Indonesian government to please help tighten the aviation law. It is sad that Indonesian Airlines was banned in EU for few years and after the banned has been lifted, Lion Air accident happened.
Especially with the Air Asia accident, Air Asia had no permission to fly that day. Air Asia should be penalized for that offense.

Leaders in the worlds -Montreal Convention in 1999 the multilateral treaty in the case of aviation accident needs to be revisited. Within the last 20 years (now it is at the end of 2018) the inflation, the growing countries - the compensation rate no longer suffice for these days. 

Supreme Court Justice in US and France: Boeing and Airbus factories are located in US and France, please help holding these manufacturers due to their known faulty system. They cannot hide on jurisdictional issue.

2) Air Asia and Lion Air

First of all, please put the safety of your passengers above your bottom line value. Pilots need rest. Ongoing pilot training to catch up with the newest technology are highly important. Routine maintenance checks on the airplanes must be well documented in logs.

Secondly, Please do your best to compensate for the family members. Do not hide behind the lawyers and offering the bear minimum by the law.

AirAsia offered compensation of Rupiah 1,250,000,000 (around less than $100K) vs victim of TransAsia Airways Flight 235 (in Taiwan) was offered $475,000.

These difference in value of compensation is insulting to our family- especially knowing that my relatives were travelling in business class airfare.

Thirdly, personal apology from the CEO to each victim or public meetup with the families would be much appreciated. Tony Fernandes- How many times does Ms. Wee Mei Yi have to write to get a response from you? https://www.facebook.com/Remembering-Chi-Man-Zoe-152943471937492/


3) Boeing and Airbus (Artus Meggitt Group)
Please inspect and develop ongoing maintenance to these airlines.
If certain airplanes have been known to have certain issues- please have a recall to inspect them individually and log to the adjustments should be well documented.

Airbus 3** series has been known to have rudder control problem - which was the faulty system that took the life of AirAsia QZ8501. (https://www.usatoday.com/story/travel/flights/2012/11/19/airbus-rudder/1707421/)

Boeing 737 (LionAir JT610) has known problem that the Angle of Attack can provide false readings.(https://www.insurancejournal.com/news/international/2018/11/08/507060.htm)

Overall, while money can never bring us back our loved ones or take away the memory and the pain, but it can help improving quality of life to those who are left behind.

Tuesday, August 8, 2017

Fairness and Compliant

I noticed that as I grow older, my desire for fairness and compliant arises.
I hold myself and people to higher standard of following the rules and comply to rules given.
Not a rule breaker by nature and very much obeying my parents, I comply to stated rules. Although to some degree the Third World Countries/Culture mindset is still within me - like not complying with government regulation regarding trash etc.

However, at work, I struggle a lot with fairness and compliant.
Today's devotional struck me.
The parables of the 2 sons.
My attitude is more like the older son.
"It is unfair that I get to do all the things" - which in a way, I should change my mindset to be
"I should be grateful to be able to participate/doing God's work"
"I should be grateful that I have the joy in doing them" (clearly people that don't want to participate at work is either not enjoying their work or lacking the ability to perform well)
"God rewards us when we come running to Him"


In the times that I am at the place of needing the grace, I pray that God will extend the same loving arms like He always do.

Wednesday, March 1, 2017

Focusing on Self instead of Comparing

Me: "Tiara, keeps on eating"
Jack: "I'm going to be faster than you"
Tiara: "No, daddy. Stop. Stop eating"
Me: "Tiara, focus on your plate, stop looking at daddy's"

Me: <pause>
God whispers, "That's what I have been telling you"
"Theresia, focus on your plate. Stop Looking at others"

#ThatMomentsWhenGodSpeaks

-Jesus Calling Devotion For February 28-
Stop judging and evaluating yourself, for this is not your role. Above all, stop comparing yourself with other people. This produces feelings of pride or inferiority; sometimes, a mixture of both. I lead each of My children along a path that is uniquely tailor-made for him or her. Comparing is not only wrong; it is also meaningless.
Don’t look for affirmation in the wrong places: your own evaluations, or those of other people. The only source of real affirmation is My unconditional Love. Many believers perceive Me as an unpleasable Judge, angrily searching out their faults and failures. Nothing could be farther from the truth! I died for your sins, so that I might clothe you in My garments of salvation. This is how I see you: radiant in My robe of righteousness. When I discipline you, it is never in anger or disgust; it is to prepare you for face-to-Face fellowship with Me throughout all eternity. Immerse yourself in My loving Presence. Be receptive to My affirmation, which flows continually from the throne of grace.
“Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven.”
—Luke 6:37

I will greatly rejoice in the Lord, my soul shall be joyful in my God; for He has clothed me with the garments of salvation, He has covered me with the robe of righteousness, As a bridegroom decks himself with ornaments, And as a bride adorns herself with her jewels.
—Isaiah 61:10 nasb

My son, do not despise the Lord’s discipline and do not resent his rebuke, because the Lord disciplines those he loves, as a father the son he delights in.
—Proverbs 3:11–12

Tuesday, February 21, 2017

Oh the Joy of Family


We have not seen my brother since last year and we have been talking and praying for him.
Tiara been asking about "qiu-qiu" for a while.
I know that my brother been busy with work and other stuffs (aka football season), so we have not really hung out with him.
Yesterday, he came to our house for a visit with many goodies from Japan, where he just came back from vacation for 1.5 weeks.
Oh what a joy to see how much Tiara loves her qiu-qiu and just to see that my brother is patient with her. Tiara always wanted to show him everything and crawled on his laps whenever she can.

I am so thankful for my brother! I am so thankful for having family around.
I might not have my parents with us now, but I am treasuring what we have.
Seeing how Tiara was to my brother, reminded me of my uncle that passed away on Qz8501 too... He was one of our dearest uncle. Always loving to us.
Anyway, Hoping that my brother will visit more often! :)



Integrity Pleases God



Growing up at church, I heard a lot of thing about integrity.
"Integrity is doing right when no one is watching"
"Integrity is choosing to do something based on your values vs personal gain"
"Integrity is the right thing to do"
"Integrity is consistency between what you value and what you do"

In the nutshell, because Integrity is one of God's values, I should be a woman of integrity too.
But, when facing choices, they are hard to make!

Just a short example this morning.........
I was late to work due to Tiara waking up late, then, the parking spots were filled up, except the "carpool" spot.
I was so tempted to park at the carpool spot since the security rarely checks our hangtag.
But, I chose not to, because it is not right. It is taking other people's designated spots.

I prayed to God that I hope He is pleased and honored with my choice.

As I processed forward to another parking spot, I saw available "PRIME" parking spot.
I was just in awe of what my God does and how quickly He answered my small little voice inside my heart.

Integrity pleases God- that's what I learn today.
It might be hard and inconvenient, but If I know that what God wants, I will do it.
I pray that I continue to choose the harder path that pleases God.